Faith in the Timing

Today is one of those dreary days where there is that part of me that would have no problem curling up in blankets, watching sappy movies, and not going anywhere or facing anyone. I think I am pretty safe in saying that we all have those days every now and then in one way or another. Unfortunately for our mood, but fortunately for us, we usually don't have the ability to just skip out on the world around us for the day. Instead, we are required  by necessity to go to class, go to work, run to the grocery store, etc.

So today, despite wanting to just stay in, I still got up. I went to class, met a friend for lunch as previously planned, checked the brake fluid in my vehicle in the rain because I knew I had the 5 minutes to do it (and the light keeps flashing at me). I will finish an outline on chapter 3 and email it to my group, get measured for cap and gown for graduation in 100 days. I will then go to open lab to practice more joint mobilizations before hurrying off to a meeting for the mission trip I am going in in just over a month. After that, I will run to WalMart to get brake fluid (how did it just disappear?) and probably snacks and such to share with classmates for the looming 2 days of a weekend radiology seminar we have.

This is what we do. We push though and keep living life-it won't stop for us. We don't get time to wallow in self pity, ignore the rest of the world, or pretend life revolves around watching sappy chick flicks and junk food. And in making myself get up today and thinking about this, the phrase 'In God's Time' rang through my head. I will openly admit, I struggle with accepting things in His time. I question why He puts time limits on things, why He lets others draw out for longer than hoped, and why I cannot speed things up in (or keep them from) occurring. But I realized this: All of life is in God's time.

Why did I have class today and have to check brake fluid levels in the rain? Because if I didn't, I would have no other reason to make myself get up and moving, and, quite frankly, today would have been (embarrassed to admit), a wallow in self-pity day. And that, obviously, wasn't what I needed to be doing.

So while, I don't believe God controls all aspects of our lives-we have free will- God places the little things in time to give us more positive options; we just have to choose to see them that way.

I have a faith in God-so I need to trust in His timing, in all things- big and little. Do I still, by human nature, wish I had a bit more control on that? You bet. But, today especially, I am praying that the Lord helps my heart to accept His timing for my life.